dis connect ion

i don't really talk to anyone but at the same i have no problem with talking .....just not to humans
i love  dreams n they been increasing since ive been mediating kinda







ill tell my dreams





one day just not today i waited too long to write this n things got to get done




i might back to talking cryptic






its better that way (big krit)

Life and death

What fascinate me about life is death. I spend years to focus on the topic. Even wishing death on myself. i can't  really remember the solitary moment  when  this interest  peeked but i can assume that it was when i was watching a lil film on freak  accidents  that results in death. They said the odds of dying was 1 out of 1. This is the truest thing in the world. Ever since then I went on a search to find death. if I could find my old poems ive talked of death as a girl a craved(http://j3tttherav3n.blogspot.com/2015/08/the-continued.html) . I was nileistic, optimistic, hedonistic I was doing all of this due to fact I know i was going to die.("im impatient I want to get this over with") but I was afraid of life which backwards a lot of people are afraid of death but not me. this just gave me an I don't give a fuck attitude. Lately however after studying alchemy I see death as another chance of life. we all need to kill our self tho . not physically but with mental or even spiritually. we need new birth of course not all of us but its a great number of people I know who actually need to go through this process in order to grow. to let go off emotions that are toxic , thoughts that are toxic  and actions that are toxic. we all know this control how we run our lives. we think of things then put emotions behind it to have an action.. the fear of changing is what people the fear that this is the end, to be honest it is it is the end of the way they look at life. certain things wont appeal to you anymore. due to the fact you let that part of you die. just think nooone comes out the womb saying im going to be an addict it happens slowly over time due to various reasons and factors. these people leave rehab and start life anew. everyone have to look at life as this : we are all just one bad day away from going crazy. this would also help you stop judging people and the situations that they are in but also understand that we are one. it helps you becoming relateable to people just like pain. as you seen by my past blog post, pain and death is real close to each other both are needed in life










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