Last day ...again

What people dont really understand i dont fear death fuck it i want it this is not a suicidal post just something to say if people dont qant to be in my life ive been down alome i will rise the same another thing i was thinking we are all creators  and destroyers just because you create dont meak everything you create is gonna be perfect and everything you destroy is gonna be needed to be destroyed just somethi g to think about

Bf material

When I was younger my biggest  flaw was that I was husband  material  and no body wanted a husband  so why is it that i get older and now only a side nigga for a lot of people they want the sex or the emotions or the affection  but they don't want me fully they dont understand  how this affects me i feel like me being me pushes  them and thats fucked up because  im a pretty good person for the most just noone wants to claim i would claim myself n say i dont need anyone but right now im weak and vaulnerbable and who wouldn't want to have a person to love in their Corner i want that .....i want it badly 😔😔😔