I dont think yall heard anger i dont like shit

I want to get people killed more on the hand to hand level  just choke the shit out of them until they stop fucking breathing. OR stomp some one until I see blood. cut some one open either until they insides come out. I want so many who look at me like Im not a threat dead, by my own hands. shoot someone just because it will be quick  to take a life. Im tired of not being token serious. The only time people get serious until some thing drastic happen. I wAnt to shoot up a school or some thing so bad but its something I cant do. I don't have a gun. That and the fact I cant get rid of a body that's stopping me otherwise I will been a murderer a while ago. I hate being here so going to jail is not even a thought I will kill myself as soon as it become some thing as threat. This is been building for so long while I've tried to be righteous and upstanding this feeling been deep inside of me. People don't see It because Its two different thoughts. one side want to kill everything in my path and slit motherfuckers throat. The  other side want to help people and heal the society they causes people to  lose it in the way im describing but its no help or harm yet I just gotta walk the tightrope of the middle lane.