the enemies in here

After years of pessimistic thinking and misanthropic behavior I have gain a sense of love but yet a sense of detest against myself I should change that I didn't gain love I gained tolerance for myself hence why when people "deal" with me I tell them everything I need because I know what can take this negativity emotional down but the sad part is I need the help of others u hate that both sides do but it's hard when you are in a relationship normally I would just go away and be alone and grow but in a relationship I just have to keep dealing with these unresolved issues that anit outsider brought up or I brought up real quick triangles with me and see my side imagine being told that you anit shit by another person it's kinda fucked but if it's by your self then it's worse you can't leAve yourself so you just have to take it other wise suicide will be on your mind and reckless behavior will follow so in conclusion these enemies of this shell is not the world it's me now if I break this shell without the proper training I will hAve to do the whole process again and it's hard to make it if you barely a caterpillar but not a butterfly or a moth




Accept me 

I can't know you must be fixed

I am who I am and it's cool I see a lil hint that you have it's only a matter of
Time

Time?

Exactly