YOU ARE A FAILURE 
I HATE YOU 
GET BETTER PLEASE

Martyr loser king

What is this ?

Its weird how kiss (kill innocent suicidal  savior) is very similar the powers that be wants to kill the ones who wants to save the world. (Die a hero or live long enough to become a villian) exactly. (Unless you stay righteous) right but the funny part is the ones who call you a villian is not the ones who won (history is written by the Victors) you just commin with all the quotes today (im inspired ) well we going to get to that can we finish first (goahead) anyway the ones who call you a villian is the ones you save. They might tear you do for you didn't  live up to their expectations of them. Ie obama mlk. I seen people tear down these men ignoreing what made them heros un the first because they didn't  have an all black agenda. Like they dont realise  that not everyone is "conscious " so to the non conscious  people like obama is a symbol of faith and hope that one they could be successful. Me personally, i never thought i would see a black president  and lo and behold  we have one. He might  did some underhanded  things (bombing innocents not talking about certain issues  in the black community) but he still did something alot more than the keyboard  warriors that just spread  hate and mlk same thing he was a powerful speaker or incited  alot of people who also did underhanded stuff  (friends with the 12families) but these men cant be crucified  for their flaws and sins by other flawed sinners. We need heros not just to save but  to be a lighthousesof hope a in the stormy weather of injustice and ignition  of the fire of inspiration . (Im a candle chop my neck a million times i still burn bright  and stand yo) 

Ok now go
(Im just glad to  be me )

I thought we wasnt going back

Fuck i thought so too but people man (are you choosing to or ) no not this time i tried  i get the usual either anger  (which is nomal ) is it i ask someone to  listen and what they do but sit up there and spaz but its either that or ignore  (also normal reaction) as fucking normal as it is i would like more of someone to fight to save me and you cant win that fight by using anger that why none of my best friends close friends know anything (is that best for you) yup i tried the openings up thing one it don't work but now ive leaned how mock n micmic emotion which is good i be around them and they  will never know (tell them  nothing because they dont care .....well what about this  blog)..........(......) hahahhaha you funny this blog would probably  be  seeen when im gone (probably) a big ass probably  (why not use the blog) for venting no because they might stumble across it i dont want that  (why you trying so hard to shut everyone out) because they shut me  out this conversation  is over

god complex part 2

God is an artist. Simple as that nothing else to be explain

(word ? nothing else to be explained you wait till another year rolls around and you give a sentence answer on how god is)

well it is just simple when you think about it. As i said before its all about perception. IN the beginning of the year (last year) yes last year thank you i was on a positivism kick.I believed that every one should be happy and positive and that other emotions are just distractions of true happiness. Nowisee the significance of emotions but because of this mindset i literally saw everything as a beautiful piece of art and to be honest i dont think i was too wrong. what is art but an object worth contemplated over. isn't everything worth contemplated over?we walk in this world and dont question anything just continuing the path we set on. rather its a career a passion  taking care of people etc we wake up and do what we got to do. but probably by the time we reach the bathroom we encountered a million things that could be considered art by that definition. How was those things made,who made them, how they there. we block these things out. most likely for out own good that way we wont lose our mind with an  thought overload. basically there is a process or method to do things especially when it comes to creating to say that the creator dont have a method of creating life or an art of creating life is naive. Another example what do you consider beautiful ? what makes it beautiful ? im pretty sure someone else can find it ugly a difference in perception makes opinions what are reviews of art but just an opinion from "professional " . These critics get paid hundreds of dollars for their opinion their opinions are not wrong or even right they are exactly what they are opinion however people make these people god among men. That thing that you thought of once you thought of a reason its beautiful congratulation you are an art critic. the point is not to see everything as beautiful but art. art is not always beautiful or even nice sometimes its ugly and gritty just like the truth that it most likely rooted from and whats more ugly than human nature. hey its the truth or is it just my opinion 

(That ending was art)

exactly other me exactly the point

(i get it everything is perception )

Right