I thought we wasnt going back

Fuck i thought so too but people man (are you choosing to or ) no not this time i tried  i get the usual either anger  (which is nomal ) is it i ask someone to  listen and what they do but sit up there and spaz but its either that or ignore  (also normal reaction) as fucking normal as it is i would like more of someone to fight to save me and you cant win that fight by using anger that why none of my best friends close friends know anything (is that best for you) yup i tried the openings up thing one it don't work but now ive leaned how mock n micmic emotion which is good i be around them and they  will never know (tell them  nothing because they dont care .....well what about this  blog)..........(......) hahahhaha you funny this blog would probably  be  seeen when im gone (probably) a big ass probably  (why not use the blog) for venting no because they might stumble across it i dont want that  (why you trying so hard to shut everyone out) because they shut me  out this conversation  is over