yolo=dwtw

you only live once
so why not do what thou wilt

I  don't need money. I just need my freedom.

a girl who haven't felt love

and my art

Mon-fri

1 week to change the whole life. After my epiphany that i cant work anywhere for money, I learned I have morals and its time to stand by those morals. I always had it but now i carefully try to make sure what i do follow those ideals i have. One of those morals are I will not do something I don't feel comfortable doing. I no longer feel comfortable in the food industry. its the fact im serving people or the fact that im serving people food that does not apply to me food places have the worst mangers( the irony ) I know. but im done with this field I been a part of it for literally years and I hated it ever since the beginning. so hopefully this would be a new journey for me to take before I leave the job force for good ..........

Vulnerability

Through my eyes glossed with tears i  pour words that i wasnt Strong enough to say to any other human to a page. Because i know it wont talk back or judge me. Im not ok vur i will not place my burdens on any other soul. I know they have their personal struggle and some are much greater than mine. And they do not understand i look up at them as sooo strong way stronger than me. I cant handle or even begin to even fathom. Now this will make realize my problems are not as bad as i thought.t han why am i crying? Why am i hurting? Why do my mind torment me like this? Why do the secrets i contain in my brain grow past a point of discomfort to straight pain ? Why do cry? How im getting by ? Why when people ask am i ok why do i lie? I just need support i need help for this to end........

Hey im pretty sure yall wanted me to write /create soo......

Create or destroy

Or 

As the days go on i feel the urge to smoke less but to cut more i know its just a reaction from doing that habit for so long.

I need a good long endearing, sincere ,loving ,caring embrace without the threat of being caught or the feeling that this is wrong. I just want to be held but thats hard to ask for if you good externally but internally im slowly breaking. Maybe due to nerves. Im starting a new job finishing an old one . a new Project being released . a new look i have to dedicate too also a new person who trying to be my significant other. Alot is happening n its a tad bit over whelming. But i guess these bottles would have to work. And i not to mention my insomnia coming back.......

Like i said 

Ssometimes you need comfort........