"But you have me now"

What is the point of having a significant order if they are not significant?

Or at least not significant enough to express feelings.

I got pushed to place where im numb but why???

Why is this happening?

How can this be fixed?

Where can i go?

When will it stop?

The next question was gonna be who can i run too? But i know that answer but heres the main question

If a person already proved their self to be worthy of holding secrets n creating comfort . why push them away?

Tbh i dont know. Its more of conflicting issues of what i did back then to what im supposed to do now.

" i did then what i knew how to do, now that i know better i do better" maya angelou

Thats where growth comes from doing something you should do because you know its right. So the time of ignorance is over its time to open up.........

One question tho

Yeah

How? In a mood like this opening up is the hardest thing.

The sane way it was done before.  Its a time to stop this pre conceived notion that helping everyone before helping my self is good or healthy.

" when the last time i called for some help that i couldnt get from no body else" Frank ocean 

independence and pride are two different things like ego and confidence. Pride comes before the fall,ego destroys all. There is nothing wrong with working for everything you have but when you need help you call for especially from your significant other. The one who stole your heart.. Yes she has her own drama and stress but thats what a parnership is there for.