So i brought a book of zen off my bro recommendation. The thing that kept me away from books like that was the fact they seem to useless. i would look up philosophers and study poetry like rumi and understand it but at that age i was Like "yeah yeah we are all one ok we Must be patient yea graditude is the most important thing" but one noone related so they just became random facts. Since i could never get them out and two because i wanted to not be here anymore i didnt really care about it. Ironically, tonight i was putting all of it together and started realizing the weight of alot of those quotes that i over looked in the past. I was trying to figure out life to much in the past. I wanted to know the experience without experiencing it. Now it's different. I want to do something with what i know instead of being just an encyclopedia. You know its funny alchemy (another form of study) and philosophy goes hand in hand (hense the philosopher stone) it took until now to get the connection. All of it is usefully when it comes to accomplishing a dream i wanted for a long time.
Story time
When i was younger and i mean a young child i wanted the world to be a happy loving and peaceful place. I knew at a young age that it wasnt and as i got older i started to realize it was going to get better. So i started to study human life i like seeing what makes people do the things they do. I went to biology (i wanted to be a doctor first) then i found out about the mind (i wanted to be a psychologist at this point) and eventually sliped into philosophy. That way it wouldnt just be one human but a group of them. Finally landing on astrology ,alchemy and other ancient teachings. The world became a playground at that point. I figured i knew everything about everything. As i grew older i found out thats far from the truth. I learned just because you know that 2+2=4 doesnt mean you know how. So just because i knew all these facts dont mean i know how to apply it. Especially to my life. After watching naurto i started to become enraptured by pain's philosophy of life. How we all need pain in order to grow. Thats something i lived for a while without even knowing it. The cutting was the physical part. The self destructive nature was more spiritual and the negative mindset was the emotional and mental. I always say if a person is used to pain something heavy have to hit them in order for them to grow. This works so much with alchemy (favorite field of study ) to put something through great soul through stress in order for it to be the best it be.
"I was black as my soul i seen it as coal i turn it to gold" -j3tt blizzi
And that was my dream to be a perfect person( a gold soul ) to show people its possible..........
This no longer exist as a dream of mind
As i said before my life path is number 9 (numerology putting everything together huh)
We are a service to the people so as a child my first thought to make the world a better place should and will be achieved!
How ?
Through art mainly music but art nevertheless that way i can get my point acrossed without sacrificing who i am.
The message?
To quote pain(from Naruto) "we believe that humans beings simply cant understand each other and they never will"
Pain and love is the most relatable things humans have. This can be something that can unite us and have us grow together. Raise the consciousness together as one. It will be possibly impossible in this life time but that wont mean i wont try my hardest.
Use alchemy to take pain and make love.I just want to bring peace .An added bonus is the fact i can see things from another person perspective. So with their point of view i can see their pain
Everything in my life can be used for this i have a life mission
And i
Will
Not
Fail!!
THIS WILL BE MY MAGNUM OPUS!!!
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