Free will = life

Now as long as I can remember I wasn't afraid to say that i have a particular relationship with death. This made me very nihilistic and depressed but as I grow to be more positive and not try to be in control, i have to change my view on it. So while on the bus I thought of how. What is so fascinating about death that i feel this "love" for it?  One word: Fate.


Anyone who knows me knows how much I value free will. Allowing people to do what they want as long as it's not to the detriment of others (and even then its others free will to allow that person to do so). This is the only thing that separates us from animals and even angels if you believe in that thing. The choice to be morally good or bad. To love or hate. Create or destroy. Now while every situation is not always that black and white, its the choice that takes the stage. This is why i'm so against manipulation even though i'm very capable of using it. i just feel like it robs people of life AKA Free will.


Death goes against this logic and has no free will its all fate. When a person going to die, where they going to die and how they are going  to die i think is preset and run by destiny. Now we can take our life to any extreme but its ultimately predetermined. This why i feel like that. Death is unpredictable its literally out of control no matter how much you try to control it . People believe they have power by owning a gun and shooting it and taking someone life. i'm sorry, I don't see it like that. The person you killed was supposed to die there and series of unfortunate event lead it up to here.

So this slight knowledge knowing i cant control death makes me feel more secured.













....................................Im too tiured to coninue i hope my point got across