sometimes

I want to leave this life it's dull I believe I'm too open minded and interesting to honestly be on this life that of have to escape I try to subdue the other part of me to not get lost in my own world but it's hard not to when this world you live in is to boring




Lonely but not alone 
Zoning out but not in my zone
I once loved with out being in it 
The difference .....


I look at children and want my own but I'm afraid of the outcome like what if they are disabled in any way I brought them in to this world in pain with disadvantages they didn't ask for and I know if this world is unfair and hard on me I know it will be more difficult for them

......Between loving  and  being in love is tolerance