Sun Gemini moon Libra

yesterday i took pictures of my self and came up with the idea of taking another one at night when i get off. It was supposed to represent the duality of my signs. The day picture was going to be smiling the night was going to be a more melancholy picture. Ironically it happened without my control, After getting off , late i might add, i got off the bus and started laughing almost hysterically nothing was funny i wasnt thinking of anything, i was literally just laughing then my mood changed i tried to  keep laugh to keep the strong facade i had up but i couldnt ......i broke. suddenly tears came i tried to stop but more i did the harder they came . i felt it for so long but didnt mention it. i missed it ... i missed comfort. Now alot of people would hear this and ask many questions , they will not be answered for the simple fact that comfort is something that us humans need.Harry Harlow did research and experiments with this. Its not a miss my mom type of feeling(i do but its not the same) its more of a support system type thing. That feeling hey im here for you or do you need a hug or more "controversial " affection. Lately their has been a lack of intimacy in my life not sex, intimacy. The difference of having someone who wants to be in your life compare to someone who can take it or leave it (but you do the same ) yea but i dont push people away (was you pushed away ?) felt like it. I want what most friends cant offer, a kiss, a touch, careless Whispers(sound kinda feminine to me my g ) well it might be having both in me you're gonna get one more than the other some times (....) i dont expect my friends to do this but.... i guess a hug... is needed? Idk. To keep it blunt and to wrap it all up, we all need comfort a feeling that everything gonna be ok. (sometimes the strong can  keep it all together but its better to know you have someone at a moments notice that can help you put it back when things fall apart ) Wife goals

But love is not in my plans

(at least not yet )


Being alone (and single) sucks

(dont cry.)