Growth n fear

 Ever since i decided to give Romana a try(......) I've learned to listen to things around me. I think it was the lack of tree{less oxygen forced me to breathe in a different way see in a different way } that actually sparked an influence for a change.with this new perspective,ive been seeing signs to actually leave my job . (kinda like that book "the alchemist" ) yes exactly like that. My time there is up i felt it coming and more i ignore it the less and less happy i will become. I just want to do what i want. i want to be free. And i will be(speak it in to existence) i see it now.  The fear i speak of come from my sudden realizing i push people away because i don't want them to die. I know death is inevitable i dont want to feel that pain. Ive lost people in my life, alot of people. From different circumstances. But its never easy but it reminds me that i have to look out whats best for me. Depresssion makes me forget that. It make me think of death as a destination (final destination😂) 😒ok anyway it shouldnt be about death but more about life. (I remember feeling like this before) yes but its not like how it is before one we got god(............) We have to accept it (i wont accept an imaginary friend ) you would be ignorant to not say your blessed(ok ) nuff said you dont even believe that truly because you dont believe its someone(something) ok it can be both. A god ,the universe and Any other being of higher power. Accept the laws of duality. You need choas to have order and Control to be free. (So its maintaining self control ) to be on the road to you being free( hmmmm) thats the power that this new way of thinking got me on.! But to finish my thought we have jimi and we have that need to be better.  Im loving life right now and if i follow this path i 👀 it only getting better

(i agree)