Good times cant even be at a good time

All this good news im getting two pregnancies and my friend got her house. Things are looking up. {Then why looking so down} to be honest i dont really know i know it will be going down idk if its with the person who makes me smile the most this month alone then i have been in a while. (You move too fast) not by my knowledge im moving by intention or by what my heart says. My mind plays the backseat( and thats how you got fucked up before) i regret nothing but i dont know if its just the universe blessing me because the love i spread in the past or is just the way i feel im not alone. I feel strong i feel capable on handling life {"when the last time i asked for help i couldnt get from anyone else") Until you feel the fear to smile
Until you feel the fear of happiness
Or a good life
Or love.
You will never understand how i feel

{I kiss the sky knowing one day it will kiss back
I wanted to see death saw him and saw what i lack
Was it a peace of mind?
Was it the end ?
I think it waz freedom
I want to be free but was too dumb
To not see the path
Its seem so obvious that i laugh
Make heaven in the hell we call earth
And the then and only then you will see your worth}



Frequency +intention =healing