The more i think the more i want to writes

I can write emotion but its always seem to not come out the way i planed. I write with so much precision that it get in the way of the emotion that i want to get across. Thats why sos was such a challenge for me to write. I can't really say how i feel i can write about it in great lengths using metaphors alliteration even some times great imagery but to just say it?...... I dont know it seem like a great hurdle for me to get over. I really live inside my mind and it only got worse over the last few days being unemployed and sick. Just give me time to not access my full range of emotions but just stay locked in my head. Its easy to relate to you but to have someone else try to do the same its a lil difficult. So i have the blog....... I mean that's whats it's here for right???