nothing will be the same

I dont know how to feel. 

i dont know how to express how i feel. On one im so happy for everyone around me but at the same time i feel left back. it could be a brief feeling due to fact of being unemployed . or the fact im not making the moves that i feel i should be making as an artist. it just i dont know i feel lost. i guess a person like me needs to be productive. I DO NOT FEEL PRODUCTIVE i dont feel important, its not depression its mellocoly well more of boredom.  i dont want to be social but im being forced to be if i get to inverted it will cause problems. i just...... feel .....im stuck.....still in the spot i was at in 2017 n 2016 alil more healthier but life wise im stagnant. so for everyone else nothing will be the same. but for me its allways the same

you should quit


never that again i just got to move different just how

how ???