Who am i

I honetly dont think you realize what goes on in my mind on a daily. This is a struggle for me each day i dont know who i am. My depression took a big chunk of my life. Everyday i act however i feel everyone wants me to act and its easy ive studied people for so long its easy to copy. I dont get to say what ibfeel or what i think people would not get it and i dont want wish to be alienated anymore idk if im born to be introverted or if i made myself introverted and in the back i hear the repeated sound of not get hurt not to get angry not to let the emotions take over. I want to hide but i cant i want run but i cant i want to make all this go away but i cant n im scared that my life is gonna be like this forever