Sleeping rants

So yesterday I took sleeping pills and kept waking up.when i woke up I texted my girlfriend this is is how it went..

I'm a bad person I'm not that bad but bad enough I can't fix it either I'm too impatient because I f eel I'mma run out of time n I won't be able to do anything I don't like the lack of control that comes with life just gotta roll with the punches n just do what you can everyday it gets easier the challenge is getting up to do it the more you do it the easier it gets except for life it's always gets harder because after experiences you change n life changes n update too so you have to adapt walking to Erie is 20 blocks sausage egg and cheese make me have heartburn now I ate it too much I spin my money on food too much why am Iso greedy I didn't need to eat I could of just had water I want a type writer so it can make the ding sound when it done a line I was a line leader.and that was a responsibility I took serious noone else did they ignored me because they didn't care and it made me not care that's how life is just fighting the urge to not care and care when it's not called for since everyone is so heartless why is everyone heartless is it cause they are broken and it's easier not to care that's what I believe because I been there and it's way easier to be selfish I want church chicken I see it everyday at erie and I want to go inside but I'm afraid to miss the bus and for some reason I think if I go in there they would say something and I'll miss the bus and lose my job and be broke like now I don't even have enough for something to drink and kettle corn I want kettle corn and even if I get paid I won't get it because I feel like its a luxury magazines are done like who reads them I haven't saw anyone pick up a magazine in years I can work for a magazine I'mma writer what if I work for a magazine and it goes under because noon e reads them 

 So I figured I got everything out until...

Same for a newspaper I'm very thirsty I don't want to say anything about it that would be. B egging  kame pooped alot in the box I think it's the food but I didn't know which one she was fed that make her poop like that you don't have to get the corn I want it but I need to be more responsible with money you remember PJs that was Eddie Murphy's show when I get paid I gotta get pizza I wanted pizza for a while now I have to get money but it's too late and I'm tired and now I'm gonna be stuck tomorrow as well n noone would visit me I'mma be alone I should hide in the closet n not come out ever again I don't want to be bothers but I do but noone would they don't know n I won't tell them I want to cry but my eyes are too heavy my test is coming up n I will be driving on the road and I'll be grown up but I won't be nothing will change I'll be the same ............,......,...........................................................................that's sad I'm a sad person count frollo locked qusimordo in tower because he was ugly am I ugly I feel ugly I wonder if Max's would ever deliver they need to I want to dig underground and start a colony 

Don't forget this is just what's on my mind ...