im glad i was getting kinda lonely
well lonely not the word i just wanted to talk
so I know you may not but i know its other personalities live in me. Its not skitzo because i know when they switch when i forget that they do thats when i get therapy lol
but to know the difference between andre and jett is kinda hard because they are different with different goals.
Andre is in a constant state of rage
jett is not hes more carefree
andre is used to pain and sometimes go towards it just to get it out the way to grow
jett loves that running from responsibility feeling
jett fights for control
andre fights for identity
Ok did you get all that time to break it down even more now
andre creates the writing and poetry
jett creates the music
Andre is alot more self sufficient than jett and way more pride. to be honest will die silently without asking
jett on the other hand see the people in his life as ways to get to what he needs. not necessarily as tools but as help because he wants to repay them in the long run
andre draw a circle around close friends
jett prefers the world
Andre lives in a sens e of survival that causes his anxiety
jett lives in a sense of forever and this causes depression
........im sorry my mind shifted again. It does not alot more now since i only got about 5 hours of sleep. I was thinking that i wanted that free musicality experience if jett can feel fulfilled i could too but its hard to. that why i dont give him control he lives with the regret that us fighting has stunted our growth. i tell him all the time its cool but he dont think so. i need him tho thats something i learned that from our wars. his impulsive and extroverted energy mixed with my willingness to be the lead and focus we would be unstoppable.
2nd panic attack avoided im getting better
you heard it ??? there it go again. its getting worst i know sooner or later im going to break. i just dont know when?
if i do break people leave me in a way
will you ? please dont i need you
dont leave me when i break
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