The lack of focus and getting things done .
This is what happens when jett goes unchecked for long
he sid to me that im the ancher but how can i be the ancher when i dont even want to be here anymore
thats my issue i sit at the boreder of wanting to be here and not wanteing to be so often i confuse my dsamn self
self love is so much and so hard its a full time job and for humans oi dont belive we have an infinite ammount of love so i felt guilty for loveing myself. Which made me refuse love to use for me. and at a certain point i felt empty i felt myself fighting for something i thought i had already but i obvously didnt. i had to worry about me its going to worst as the month go on i tell everyone its hard as hell for me not to be stressed out this month so much i want to do but cant due to this job.
i dont even want to call it a job
a place i stay at so i get money to pay off luxarys
isee it ? you have to see cycle i got through on the daily. i really wish you could routuine is good when you doing it for a cause but its so boring to live in a repetition
i feel guilty about my art since im not consistent with it. i try to be i do. its just
no excuss
i have to get my focus back
this is why i have you i can figure things out when someone just listens
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