we need to be alil closer

hello, friend
im back but it's not on a negative mindset.
I can actually breathe.
I can smell the air and feel good.
I've been thinking about being deep and how the whole being woke trend is just there for commodity
I've been wanting to get this idea out but i dont know how I know it has to be entertaining enough that people would like to read it and that's my problem.
thats have always been my problem I give my opinions as facts because they are facts
.....to me





it's weird I even see a structural difference in the way that I write when im not depressed or down in the dumps. I normally neglect the blog when i don't go through things but I figure I should start janueralling . Get some ideas out my head and placed somewhere

So I'm telling you......

Even if its not something unfavorable....people still have their own issues and problems and probably don't want to talk about what I want to talk about so if I hold what I need to say or more likely what i WANT  to say i will be upset it makes me feel unheard

Unheard
I ve been thinking about that for a minute being unheard ignored. its been a big part of my issues but since I've been working on communication I know its multiple ways of being heard without raising your voice or getting defensive. this stoic way of thinking been helping with a lot. It takes off the burden of trying to be in control of everything even starts to work on jett.

When i need him i call him out when not i can make myself the anchor. it could be this confidence-boosting affirmation that makes me believe i can be great on my own. Now am I fixed? no am i cured? far from it but will i be ok?




only time will tell i dont know but i know for now its working




and i dont want it to fail



not yet
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