I can't feel the same. While I don't have a fear I don't feel free......free to express myself that is. I'm not afraid I'm tired. Tired of being misunderstood or not having worth being added to my words as if I'm speaking to an aybess.
"if a poet is in a forrest and no one is around to hear them, Do their words still matter?"After a while you get tired of repeating, reiterating, making the same point over and over again. But you have to because this point must be made and understood in order to move on to another point. Its a journey of self-expression that I've been on alone and trying to look for someone to be a partner to the journey is harder than I thought. Social media well my timeline at least have been either crudely humorous or idealistically political with the pictures of random TnA (no IMPACT!) sprinkled in for a pallet cleanser. Do I think we need to talk about self-expression? No, because we are on the internet and on the internet, it's easier to express your thoughts and feelings due to the lack of accountability or the fact that you not in the person vicinity of who you're hurling your comments at. For example, The number of people who said chance new album is trash are less likely to say the same or have the same energy if they were face to face with chance. So what do I want? I want the self-expression without having the thought that no one cares. Income the wonderful world of therapy. Where you pay people you don't know to care about the words you say, because the people you do know cant handle, don't care, or don't understand what you say. I was a big fan of no therapy for the simple fact it seems useless but now at the ripe age of 27 (27 club candidate *finger crossed ), I feel like I need it more than ever. Either that or I'll be drugged and drunk out my mind on a regular. I don't want to self destruct tho. I want to be gone. or be at a place where my soul doesn't have to be misunderstood or trampled.
im not free because of fear im locked away because im ignored.
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