i should have never been released

i walk down the street see people and think how could they die, how could i kill them, how can i kill me or kill them all. Thoughts of homicide,suicide,genocide have plagued my head for a decade and now since i cant be emotional(this  would be explained later) i have no choice to be majority spiritual and mental. my mental is the darkness its always been some things we do just make no logical sence. Love is stupid truly. i say that so many times you came in this earth alone we share it with another. idk that sounds stupid. but thats the emotion part that really want it. living is stupid to me to whats the point of living to die. now i know one answer is to experance this thing called life to get an perception for it ok if thats the case me dying should be ok ive lived right hell more than alot of other black men in the same predicament. i want to get high sober life brings this side out of me



"weed is getting boring now im looking for a new high"

i should have stayed in the hospital