"Nigga you crazy"

This is level im not trying to reach again I've been there before. its low frequency, low vibrations but its too easy to get low. its harder to get to a place where higher vibes are there. I've been to a place where everything i touch is on point. The rhythm i feel deep inside me just harmonize and bring melody to everything. The rhythm is ultimately love 💘. When im low tho.

In a sense its wrong and in a sense its right. Fear is stronger since its easier to obtain therefore easier to grow. Love is stronger due to it can change the world for the better. Fear can change the world but look around its ruled by fear now. Americans hate trump outta fear thats hes a racist. Racism is the fear that one race will obliterate another. Hate is the fear that your well being is in danger. When its nothing to fear its freedom. Too much fear would make oppression. Oppression will make hate. Hatred would make a revolution but a revolution outta hate would breed more hate. I dont know where i was going with this except my vibration is dropping im trying to raise it but



("In this hateful world
I feel the hate within me
Cant trust a soul cant trust friends or family
Kush kloud kamikaze" )

Introspection,conversation,audience

While i was waking up i tryied to meditate it worked .....well alil. But the idea i already had just come more into clear thought. Sadly its fading so i have to be quick to let it out.

{This works on so many levels n noone will get it ....yet }


First lets start with the introspection. The story is a look at my life from this past years and a few months prior. I was listening to ab soul "do what thy wilt" so its alot of biblical references. In the first track i literally compared myself to jesus. But its basically about me. Andre. Some tracks are a collaboration but its basically fueled by me.



(Conversation will be done by me. I dont allways put my feelings into a song its more of what is said and it will be straightforward as possible. The self titled conversation will be between me and the people close to me. But it will be more relatable. Flow might be focused more but its mainly the words that the focus where introspection is more on the consepts.)


{Audience is the last part of the series. This where it all comes together. God willing at this part i will have some ground swell enough to actually make an inpact on the way society works. Not enough to change it but to at least show what i envision. }


So it goes self , others, world


Isnt that same order i said could change the world. Fix your self , fix your tribe and then the world


Trinity(2){Infinity}

Know i see the pain i caused /incomplete\

You now you just a memory........


After a good listen to this song i can say it accurately depict my love life in the teen to 23. I do feel bad about it but not really to the point of complete guilt. But just enough to apologize but i cant because i have no way of doing it. So im sorry to all the women i have hurt (but why? With out that pain i caused them they would never grew. You need pain to grow if anything i should be thanked) but your pain was not necessary (all pain is necessary ) not really too much growth at one time can be dangerous ( thats bullshit ) too much pain can turn a child into an adult (with as many childish adults that is in the world right now you think thats a bad thing) but you shouldn't feel obligated to give it to them (why not) because who are you ?

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The past makes the future look bright

"Just the same way you showed me"

If you are a fan of the blog, its not uncommon to know im a serial monogamous. When i took a year off and started dating again. I met a 🚺 that i started talking too. However she was possessive with the one thing i give to anyone i love :time. See i love myself. I like being alone, its very enjoyable to me. I dont like needing people. I would feel that way until the Nights. So when i found someone who would actually give me the attention i craved. I jumped on it n to be honest she actually had my ❤ but i couldnt be a puppet. Im too free to be a homebody i like chilling but but what we getting green more if we anit going to see more. Its a whole 🌎 out there i want to see  more. I was On that type of time she wasnt on my level. No offense to her but she wasnt im not going to go into details( why not) i dont feel like it and im not here for the slander. Anyway the reason why i brought this up is for a simple fact that i know what i want. And i want........( ok time for you to get out your feelings) maybe you need to get into yours what was up with you today? (You too geeked to even see anything past your crush.) And you're becoming more and more jaded. Like you're fighting for survival......do you think im going to k...( kill me? You cant even if you wanted to. ) so why do you feel the need to be in the spotlight? Why must you exert dominance {hes scarred of change } (did i ask you?) { no but its the truth you like the feeling of being comfortable.nothing wrong with it just we all know if we stay the same we see no change} ok but what does that have to do with the anger ?{ we need it anyway look the next project is going to be about people. write how you feel } both of us ? {Yes} ( i will when he get out his feelings) { grow up you know thats his thing he's the ❤ thats what he do. You are the brain. As the brain you is supposed to make sure he dont do anything stupid. But you have you to make be able and willing to try to do something new} dont tell me what to do until you can Explain my heart. (Whatever i don't want you to get hurt again we ALL feel pain when you get hurt) im being safe we actually Did  Alll the steps we supposed to do. Talking, flirting ,(kissing ) that wasnt part of the plan but it doesnt go further. She even like you!! i dont get why you mad { like i said hes scared } (not scared just...... cautious) and thats ok but im strong and can handle it.  Imma be like her and learn to dance in the rain. (But shes a dancer ) and what are we (a rapper ){ poet} and a writer how can we express the pain or even joy of rain and we dont experience it. (......){i agree}



{We meditating today ?}
Yea ....
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........i miss my grandmom
I miss my pop pop
Jimi do you have anything


{As footstepts in the dark approaches
We learn we only fear the unknown
We must learn to confront this fear
And continue walking
Because it might just be our future self we walk into}
Beautiful


Today i also learned the power of hugs. They can really melt a cold heart.......if its genuine

A typical day (dramatize)

Glimpse o f heaven

{I love that title by the way }

(Thank you. So it happened again. That dream where i saved the world. Now i could chalk this up to being a narcissist with a hero/savior complex. But no. This dream was way to vivid. However i cant remember it when i woke up. ) Damn ( i know. I remember knowing that fact that i wont be able to remember it since its the second time i had this dream. So i know the rules and whoever was giving me the plans knew that i knew because i tried to wake up midway to get a pen. But my  Body was paralyzed) random guy used thunder wave. ( 👀 what's up with you today)  im happy (oh yea i forgot give me a minute ill get to you) { and the title fits his situation too }( Thank you jimi. Back to my point i had it to save the world. I dont know if this is a sign that im on the right path. Or i lost my way . its just lately my intention been pure with alot especially with).......her. Play some music for my part ( what you want to hear?) Either walkin by thundercat or something old school with soul (so you play im so into you tho ) it fits right (that is true) anyway i had the greatest date. It was simple but exciting we went skating and a dinner ....something simple. But it was the feeling. I was skating. That was a fear of mine i told everyone and after 18 years i finnally went ( angel in disguise -brandy)  ok but it felt too real most times i would be like "everyone is watching" "no i don't want to go ill chill " but i feel like i have to step my shit always around her like i have something to prove. But the beauty of it is ....i dont. She's so accepting on who i am. I feel like its not just tolerating me based on the fact im /was suicidal or depressed ( all that i can say - mjb) thank you but as i was saying she not with me because i have the qualities of a "good husband" its just me but this scares me as i write this because it might go away or might just be that way since we just met (calm down your panicking ) no!!!! what if everyone is right we get into a relationship and we fail ( then that will be the greatest fucking failure. look, you look at the past and the future which is good but heres some problems with that ) nothing really matters lauryn hill ( the past cause depression and the future causes anxiety. You worrying about what if and all that what happen to being "all in")  i understand that.... ( how do she makes you feels ?) 😄😊😀😔😁😂😫😅😑😏 (ok...... I thought you was going to use words but emojis work.... I guess well ... That seems fairly positive) she makes me feels pleasant ...special .....worthwhile ....( Something to live for??? ) ......... (Then thats something to fight for. if someone make you feel like this , dont run out of fear it will leave, fight so it will stay. ) {Diary -alicia keys} thank you jimi im scared i will destroy her (what i said eariler about intentions, keep them pure and you should be fine. Which mean dont be afraid of the truth rather giving or accepting it. Just go with the flow ){whatever you want tony toni tone} (and do everything to your best abilities ) and that's what i feel with her.. to just do the best i can do .....i just want to make her happy ( well she told you {multiple times} that you make her happy just stop thinking so much thats my job. ) its hard when you see a glimpse of heaven in someone eyes

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(What ??)

{Since when do you say poetic words??? Thats my job!!}

lights flicker on and off as sit in a room

Inside this vacant, desolate spot is me and you.

As the lights shines i see beauty, when it fades 

I hold my arms out so i can feel beauty

But as long as we're together, the lights in my chest remains on so you can see what i feel...

You

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And this is why im scared in the first place....

(Dont be its a good thing. You just not used to it)

All in (Breakin news) /jett leads\

im thinking of these words as I am writing them. After looking up the lyrics of the kid cudi song "All in" I realize instead of a love song ,like I  though it was, it was actually a message to his fan about his music. He was saying his heart was "all in" the commitment to the craft and to keep making great art for his fans. I thought it was it was all in to another person. He says "no one makes me feels secure except you and now im all in" . When he said you I thought was obviously talking to another person like a conversation but no he was talking to "you " the listener. When you consider an outcast or a loner or weird, you tend to seek for a place where you can just fit in with people who understand you. I can relate to that. I think a number of other artists who actually show who they are to connect with fans. To make you feel less insecure and isn't that what we need. A bunch of people who can connect over something. idk maybe im thinking too hard . But here's the kicker (the big surprise) Ive met someone like that . someone who make feel less..........insecure. Now I have people in my life that also do the same thing but this one ...............is different

(I thought batman always have a plan )
Shut up
Anyways I was thinking about doing the same thing with my music. showing all sides of me and basically being an open book. (This is gonna leave me exposed) not necessarily. There is a reason why you learned your defensive tactics just so you can open up easily(ok make sense) so with that said I got to become my number one fan again. I doubt my music is good because its not like everyone else.(or not on the levels of the greats ) but the  thing is I have to make own lane and do whatever feels right. all my life I knew thing without me knowing things it was a gift if you will. the whole point is to trust the universe (god ) {jah} (the creator) yourself then maybe life would be easy think before I act but don't forget to act






heres the song if you wanted to hear it


all in

Good times cant even be at a good time

All this good news im getting two pregnancies and my friend got her house. Things are looking up. {Then why looking so down} to be honest i dont really know i know it will be going down idk if its with the person who makes me smile the most this month alone then i have been in a while. (You move too fast) not by my knowledge im moving by intention or by what my heart says. My mind plays the backseat( and thats how you got fucked up before) i regret nothing but i dont know if its just the universe blessing me because the love i spread in the past or is just the way i feel im not alone. I feel strong i feel capable on handling life {"when the last time i asked for help i couldnt get from anyone else") Until you feel the fear to smile
Until you feel the fear of happiness
Or a good life
Or love.
You will never understand how i feel

{I kiss the sky knowing one day it will kiss back
I wanted to see death saw him and saw what i lack
Was it a peace of mind?
Was it the end ?
I think it waz freedom
I want to be free but was too dumb
To not see the path
Its seem so obvious that i laugh
Make heaven in the hell we call earth
And the then and only then you will see your worth}



Frequency +intention =healing