Less is more

Lately ive been focusing on me. Using my research skilss to be the best person i can be.....and i still fail...in the biggest way possible. I let a issue thats been in my life for years slip by my fingers and get out of control. I always took my anger as just who i am its a part of my personality. I felt as if i didnt have it i wouldnt be funny or as over the top. Basically ill be boring. However when it comes to the point where people are scared to talk to me because they dont understand thats when its a problem. Lets take it all the way back back in the days when i was a child now dig if you would this picture, a child who vent frustrations and when he did he was label "crazy". Terrible i know but did anyone else fuck with me ? No. For a while i just didnt want to get fucked with but as an adult , and given the career choice im in i have to be approachable. I dont want talk to the angry guy why would i believe someone else would. Then saybnoone understands me. It dont work that way. I can be angry there are lots of things to be angry about but at the right place n right time. Misplaced anger has been my problem for a while. I must direct to the source or make a 16 or something because i feel terrible about letting it go on the wrong person......especially someone who i truly love and dont deserve.

I can say with no self deprivation i feel like shit.