" if i get better i will not be same . i will not be creative i will not special i will not be cared for. i know how this world treat Strong people they forget about you and figure you cant break and if you do you are not revered anymore you back to the suicidal kid "
life cant be like this
(it is ........you just looking for a reason to quit)
why must it always go to that
(because you like to quit its easier than just making it through to the end)
I'm bad with sticking things but i can learn to be better
(and whats keeping you from it )
life is hard
(and it only gets harder)
The funny things is when i was younger i didn't need people because i didn't do any thing. but now i have things to lose i need people more than ever. i pushed them so i wont feel weak when i did the same with god. I feel like he gave me enough for me to make it without him. Not to spite him but to praise him. Like look how much i did with the minimal amount of help this is because you gave me power thanks.
each time i would go to help is like pressing a hint button. Like i can feel like im disappointing him as if you will a mentor
How can i feel powerful or strong or even special if i have to drag myself to ask for help all the time. Which child are you proud of the one that asks for things all time or the one who gets it. yall can lie and say the one who ask but i know the truth the one who have it together is the one whos desired and be praised
when climbing a mountain if you hear someone had a crew and all fancy equipment or someone did it alone with the least amount of help which one is more impressive?
i dont want to be average
i dont want to be normal
i want to be IMPRESSIVE I WANT TO BE SPECIAL I WANT TO BE EXTRAORDINARY
I AT LEAST OWE GOD THAT I OWE HIM TO BE BEYOND EVERYONE AND BE GREAT
I WANT TO BE PERFECT !!!!!!!
I WANT TO BE
more than i actually feel like i am because i always feel
small
insignificant
worthless
minuscule
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